Wednesday, October 21, 2009

4.5 Years

For my 4.5 years anniversary my husband Mike took me to Las Vegas and we stayed at the new resort-spa-casino M. With our stay there was tickets to see Journey.Mike surpised me and attended the concert also. Looking back at the concert and stay I feel renewed. I haven't let myself enjoy life to the fullest because I was afraid. The theme of their 2009 tour was "Don't Stop Believing." Isn't that the truth in one simple sentence. I believe that I will make it to 10 years and more if God wills it. Those 5 days and 4 nights in Vegas were memorable. We both acted like we where in our 20's and enjoyed our seleves to the fullest and I would not change one thing we did. My 4.5 check up is in December this time as I was away, but I am not afraid anymore of it. As the time nears I might get a little worried of the scans, but I won't stop believeing.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

4 years

It is 4 years since my first surgery. I feel blessed that I am alive, others are not so lucky, they have recurrent growth of the mucus or have died. I am no different than others who have this disease,but the question comes back, "Why me?" ever so slightly in the back of my mind. Sometimes I feel guilty about being alive, when others I have come to know have died.
I have done what I wanted to do so far.. to see Sam graduate from Northeastern University in May of 2008 and moved to his own apartment in New York. Not married yet has to find a job then in a couple of years they will. Zaky has his drivers licence and he went to the prom. He will be graduating from high school on June 5th of this year.. and is going to school in Avondale AZ to become a Master Technician in automotive repair.
We have traveled to many lands and have taken in some amazing sites and I am thankful for my husband Mike for all that he has done for me.
Celebrate life!